Surely I think

All people

All space

Most truly realize

That we all are the creator’s children

Perhaps “peace on earth”

“Good will to men”

Is not just a bygone phase

But a way of life

Which can be truly magnificent

         

     

       The Elder stopped and asked Alvaro to get the kettle, then he went on,“ Once I went to a big university. I needed to learn the white mans knowledge so I could tell our people what was occurring, besides the euthanasia practiced upon us. I went into a doctoral class in Phenomenology where they talked about all kinds of interesting things. When it came my time to write a paper to teach the class with, I wrote a great statement. I wrote: I prefer the perception of Being to a concept of a self. Now the professor and I had a common bond which had been mutual somehow. He looked at my scribbling and he looked at me in disbelief and with a smile he asked, “Are you going to defend this?” I replied that I wasn’t going to defend it but, I could talk about it to the class. And I did. I got an A because the professor and some of the students had peeked into the realm beyond words, a state of Being which used reflective consciousness as storage and retrieval of lived phenomenon. Most people are divided inside their “selves.’ Here, reflective consciousness in these people is used to contain an image of their selves as their internal beingness comes into collision with their external realities. How can I use reflective consciousness as an information and experiential base if I am always combatting an IMAGE of myself which I have to constantly maintain. An internally deposited set of rules and regulations of what I-should-be. Now I could go on with this for a long period of time. In fact that’s what I do. Clear the cobwebs if possible.”

      Alvaro came in with a pot and cups for us and the men in the hall. "Just in time” the Elder said, “I was getting a big wind blowing," he laughed.

     I didn’t laugh. I wanted to hear more. Here truly was a crack between the worlds. Robert didn’t laugh either. He and Tomas were busy writing. The Elder poured the tea and a fragrance like honeysuckle wafted in the air. We all took a cup . The Elder held up his cup and said “Saludth.” We all did the same. The tea was excellent and that feeling of rarified energy came back.

     

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

 

     

                  

      “Do you believe these things?” queried Robert.

       “There is much difference between your culture and mine. Much difference  within my own culture and the knowledge of the Kivas.” The Elder replied. “We say words which we assume that each one of us understands in their absolute syntax. I can assume this is true as long as there is information which is coherent. The white man has so polluted the world by his emerging distortion that few people can be coherent with Spiritual development. A lot of fragmentation abounds within your culture, a lot of material madness. It is his fear of non-existence which rules the day and the people. It rules citizens of not only his country, but all other countries who try to stand against his rulers.”

     “There is another Reality which is much more permanent than these efforts to continue his. Personal life with security and abundance. The other Reality is the world of perceptual Being, an existential Sprit with the ‘energy of creation.’ This Reality is real and just as necessary as taking care of your body.”

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

        

      Robert looked at the Elder intently as he reached into his pack. Alvaro stiffened, expecting what I don’t know. Robert pulled out a thick book which looked like a journal. “May I,” he said. The Elder nodded. Robert spoke in a clear relaxed manner. “I have come to you because the keepers of kivas have told me that if I wanted answers to my questions you were the one to see. And I have many things to say and perhaps not too much time to say them.” He reached into his pocket and produced a rock which he handed to the Elder. “Do you know what this is?” he asked.

      The Elder said nothing, just waited for Robert to go on with his statements. Robert didn’t really seem to care whether he had an answer or not. He went on to fill in the blanks, “It’s a moon rock.” Here he waited for the impact to hit the Elder. The Elder looked at the rock then handed it back to Robert. He simply looked at Robert as if waiting to hear the punch line.“ It’s yours.” Robert said. “ This is a moon rock but it came from a site on Earth. It came from Iceland.  Do you have any stories of this?”

      My eyes had to open a little wider because I was beginning to hear things which definitely interested me.

     “Yes,” the Elder said. “May I ask to what purpose the questions are raised?”  

      Without flinching Robert spoke, “ I have been in the middle of some events which have changed my life, forever. The world I grew up in is only a memory. Events that culminated two and a half years ago have led me on a quest for validity of certain aspects. This rock was one of the pieces to comprehend, to some degree. My coming here, I hope, will put all the pieces together. At any rate, it was worth a try.”

      “The rock you hold is a piece of the moon. The moon is the child of mother Earth and the planet who hit her. The moon is a by product of this collision. But that happened a long time ago.”

     Robert seemed elated. The feeling was noticible in his voice. “Do you know more?”

     “When this planet hit Earth," the Elder continued, “It pushed the Earth into a larger orbit. What had been a cycle of 360 earth revolutions around the Sun went to 365 plus. Debris of another planet is evidence that a larger planet hit another one and those fragments orbit the Sun today. Or so I’ve been told.” 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

           

            

      Alvaro came in followed by Tomas and five men. Robert looked at the Elder with eyes which portrayed something. What I did not know. His demeanor didn’t please the Elder one bit.  The Elder looked  at Alvaro and the men who came with him. “You fellows can wait by the door.”   

     “Not so fast,” said Alvaro. “I want these men to stay in here.” He motioned for the men to remain.

     Again the Elder spoke, “ You men wait outside. If I need you, I’ll holler.”

     Here, Alvaro interrupted, “I don’t think that’s wise, I want these men to stay in here.” Alvaro motioned for the men to stay.

    The Elder spoke again, “I must be heard this time. You men wait out there. If I want or need you, I’ll holler.”

    Meanwhile, I was feeling a sense of timelessness, of some other timeage. I had the perceptual feeling of being an energy field in which my body was unified. This energy field went beyond the boundaries of my body and I felt that my physical presence was suspended in it, radiating in its invigorating essence.

    Alvaro remained steadfast and said for all to hear. “I don’t know this man Robert. I don’t think it is wise for you to be left unguarded.”

   “It’s alright,” the Elder said and he turned his back and motioned for Robert to sit down.

    Alvaro wasn’t very happy with this but, he nodded and motioned for the 'aides' to stay outside. Reaffirming his position Alvaro said “Don’t venture away. Come quickly if called. Alvaro discharged the men with an intense look of sincerity.

    “So,” the Elder said to Robert, “you wanted to speak with me? “ As he spoke, he waved Alvaro to the seat on the left of him and me on the seat to the right. He continued. “Tomas please take out your notebook.”

    So there we sat in a close circle. Tomas next to me and Robert sitting in front of the Elder, next to Alvaro. A hush fell into the room and the fire crackled comfortably.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

         

     Robert looked at the Elder. What I came to ask the other night, I couldn’t speak. I did not trust any of you. When I couldn’t speak with you alone, I talked around the bush, so to say.”

    “And now?” The Elder questioned.

    “I have to stop running somewhere,” Robert said. “Guess this is as good a spot as anywhere. I’m tired and I don’t know where to turn…I don’t know what to say first… I,” he shook his head as if trying to let the words out of a dam.

    The Elder bent over to him and motioned for him to come closer.  Robert moved forward as the Elder spoke, “Do you trust me Robert?” The words were as a father speaks to his young child.

    “I do,” Robert said with a sound of relief…a note of resignation.

    The Elder reached into a small bag and when he brought his hand out, I could see the salve on both index fingers. It was the same slave he had put on us. With one finger he placed salve on Roberts crown, his soft spot. Then he held Robert’s head as he pushed the salve onto his forehead. Robert offered no resistance.

    Then the Elder put the salve on own his head in the same places. “What now?” I thought. I began to feel, perceive the Elders energy intensely as well as Roberts energy, which seemed no longer bound close to him.

    “Now tell me,” the Elder said, “take your time. Let’s talk of the questions you came here to personally ask me that you thought would help you." 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

              

        Robert stopped being relaxed as he asked,” What were they asking and what did they look like?”

       “The men,” said Alvaro, “were dressed in tourist clothes..it wasn’t just what they wore it was also how they acted…always with the sunglasses and telephones. Also the number of them, ten, twelve, here to stay awhile. There were another six of them in two SUVs at the edge of the village. There in the cafe, others appear to come and go. It is really difficult to individualize them because of the Hawaiian shirts and the kaki pants…black shoes.”

      “As to what they want,” Alvaro continued, “they are looking for a man or group of men who have information about something. That’s all I know.”

      “Did they mention any names?” Robert asked.

      “Yeah,” Alvaro said, “names and pictures.”

      “Did you happen to hear the names or see the pictures of the wanted people?” Robert asked quietly.

      Alvaro answered  “They’re all over the village, and everywhere from here to miles around. This is serious. Someone has stepped on somebodies toes. They are sure at least one man has been through here…none of our people ever know anything...it’s not our business.” He looked at Robert as he made the last remark and then added “Or is it?”

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

     The Elder took something from his pocket and motioned for Alvaro, Tomas and I to sit down. He took Alvaro’s head in his hand and put salve of some sort on his head, right in the middle of his eyebrows.Then he did it to Tomas, then me. 

    “What is this stuff?” I wondered. 
    “That will keep you centered. Do not react to anything I do. Do not judge anything I might say. This is an induction. Stay steadfast as it goes on, regardless of what you hear. No flights of fantasy.”
      Robert came in looking refreshed.
     “Come have some tea,” the Elder said. 
      I began to feel was if my personal energy field had become unified and grown, radiating in all directions. This sense of energy seemed to permeate the energy-of-life, without any sense of boundaries. My awareness and at-one-ness was still and tranquil. I looked at Alvaro, who made a slight motion with his hand. Thumbs up was the acknowledging gesture. I could ‘feel,’ perceive, sense everyone’s personal energy within the boundaries of my own. Power…Being Power. It was as if we were in a hologram. On the other hand, Roberts personal energy felt tightly compact, closely grouped around him. Everyone else felt as if we had molded and merged with the overall energy. The crown of my head felt open, like a funnel. The same place as the soft spot of my child's head. There was an intensity to it yet also a stillness, like being in the eye of a hurricane. 
     The cups were filled and fresh. Pieces of home made sourdough bread, fresh vegetables and fruit were brought in by a woman I hadn’t seen before. “Thank you Grandfather, Thank you Creator,” the Elder said as he handed Robert the bread. “You look quite refreshed.”
     “I am,” Robert said. “ I have never felt so safe,” he added as he looked around at each one of us. 
     In his demeanor, I knew that he had picked up a difference in us somehow.
     “I’m glad you can be comfortable here. But I have to tell you all that Alvaro brought back distressing news from the village.” The Elder spoke as he looked at us one by one. “It seems that someone who came to the meeting the other night is being hunted by men who have little manners and less information. Why they want this person is a secret. That they want this person is quite plain. Do any of you know the reason for this continual inquiry?”


-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

           I could hear Alvaro talking as he came down the corridor. When he came into the room, the Elder was with him. I stood up and greeted the two men. “Is there something wrong?” I asked. Looking back now, if I had known where we were headed, I wouldn’t have asked.

           The Elder looked at me and said “Where is Robert?” I told him that he was bathing. The Elder told Tomas to go get him but not to alarm him in any way. Then he turned to Alvaro and said, “Get what I gave to you.” Alvaro left and the Elder told me to sit down.

         “I know you came to hear of the prophecies and to report to your elders. There is a matter I think is very important  and I must ask you to decide whether you want to see this through or not. If you don’t you must leave and come back only when you are sent for. If you stay, it is for the duration of this conflict but, I must know now!” The Elder looked intently at me.

        “May I know what I am agreeing to?” I asked.

        “I’m afraid I can’t tell you,” he said “it’s up to you.”

         Without hesitation I said “Do you need me?”

         The Elder spoke softly, “Only if you can commit, there is no journey back. I do not know the whole of it so I couldn’t tell you even if I wanted to. It could be dangerous, I don’t know. I know inside myself that it could be a lot more than it seems right now.”

        I remembered the intense unification I had felt and the love for this way of life. I heard myself say, “Im here.”

       “For the duration?” asked the Elder.

       “For the duration," I replied. My words sounded far away from me but they were clear and decisive.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

           Robert responded by saying “What you are saying is that the newly born Spirit of a person becomes separated psychically into fragments of its true nature by events which it cannot totally synthesize nor rationalize. Even though it continually tries to put its ‘self’ back together. There can only be harmony when the person learns to be a part of a non-understandable whole. An individuation within this WHOLE.”

        “That’s a glimpse” said Alvaro.” The internal part of you and me must learn to be one omnipresent energy which has put all its energy systems in one vibration. Then this vibration can harmonize with the at-one-ness. This purification is necessary for the stored Spiritual Knowledge to be induced.” 

         I had been listening intently and I added my understanding to the conversation. “It is the eastern system of abolishing the ego and transcending into the creative vibrations of life. The chakras must be attuned into one current vibration. Most people live in feelings and emotions. Most of our categorical knowledge can be a reference rather than a pivotal point of all interaction. Using the vibrational state as a way of Being allows us to act not just react.”

       Alvaro looked at me. “I think I see what the Elder sees in you."  

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                 Alvaro paused a moment then continued, "There must be a return to the Beingness of the entity before words. To the time of belongingness and the feeling of being where it belongs. This stopping-the-world must occur, so that each one us can experience the at-one-ness. This leads one to the existential awareness of being individuated within the Field-of-Life. A unique distinction which can never comprehend its totality but a distinction which can Be within the field of Relativity. This may sound simple but, it's not.

                  "There is the need for the essence of a person, which we call Spirit, to emerge psychically with the internal systems.  This emerging allows a merging with the Spirit-of-all-things-living. Once this centroversion occurs, then the individuated Being begins purification and seeks Harmony with Creation.

                   Alvaro paused, "this is my interpretation of what 'the Elder' spoke to me. Not only was it true for me but, this stopping-the-world and this centroversion of personal energy opened the doorway to an eternal now.

                    "I hope I haven't made this sound too simple because everyday I have to center and work in harmony with the Great Spirit of Life. Is this a different approach to everyday existence?"

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

 

       The room felt warm, like an extension of our energy. Alvaro pulled out a deer pipe and produced a pouch from under his shirt. As he filled the pipe he spoke, “This sacred tobacco has been with us a very long time. This Cuna has sumac, willow bark, tobacco, and a few other things. This pouch belongs to the Elder. He left it for us to enjoy. He tamped the pipe with his thumb and lit it with a piece of cedar. 

      “Hmm,” I wondered.

       Alvaro began to speak as the aroma of cedar and tobacco filled the room. “Robert, hold this in, so that its essence can be absorbed.

       Robert gingerly tasted the pipe and then passed it to Tomas who did not even falter. My turn. Now I don’t particularly like tobacco, so I only took a small puff and to my surprise, it actually didn’t burn my lungs.  I gave the pipe back to Alvaro who knocked it out and filled it again. This time he handed it to me and I to Tomas, then to Robert.  This time Alvaro inhaled more.

       “Hmm,” I thought. I was alert yet relaxed. Invigorated yet calm. My field of energy radiated beyond me and mixed with the radiance within the cave. 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                 Emanation of ‘Creative’  forces

                       Areas of Conciousness

                   Movement of Spiritual energy

                                 

                          Into the Tonality

                    

                    

                     Divisions of ones ‘Being’

          

          How, divided by our perceptual awareness enjoined with presentation of past associations, often cause fragmentation and interrupts the “Chi” flow of the individual.              The Matrix is the conduit through which the Life Force flows or becomes available.

           

       Robert put down his plate as he asked, "Is there a coherent structure to the Kivas. One that's teachable to "others?"

        Alvaro answered, “ I’m not at liberty to  tell you what it takes years to begin and a lifetime to expand. There are however key concepts which are, when comprehended, always with you. There is no set date for actualizing the first set of instructions. There are four Kivas which a person moves through. Only after emerging from one, you enter the other. The knowledge from one expands as you continue into the other.”

      “Is there a curriculum which exists?” Robert sat poised to take notes.

      “I’m trying to answer your questions without being rude.”  Alvaro responded. “ Let me give you an example. You are looking for structure without content. The content helps build the structure.” Alvaro looked at Robert to see if he understood, then continued.  “Content or concepts can often open the door to perceptual awareness. Many people use words as structure.  However, perceptual awareness can bring about the need for words in order to explain or describe what was perceived. This is a cultural difference. The white man comes from one door and we come from another.”

    “In the white man is conditioning which makes him generalize from his way of life to everybody else’s. The Elder told us that comparison always employees judgment . So these judgements lead to a structural basis for life; an understanding of the-way-it-should-be. This comparison causes fragmentation and distortion.” 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

                 What I do at times is tell lies. When my daughter kept my season pass to Dollywood and I had looked for it for a week, I find out that she has the card from the last time we went. Now I could let my emotions go and say, “Jesus you know how long I have looked for that card. You know better than (keeping) it. Jesus!” But one response isn’t the whole pie.

     So because I love her and don’t see any sense in continuing the ‘Karma,’ and because I am more than a reaction, I say, “Thank you for keeping my card and taking care or it for me (then quickly) for us.

      Then I say Thank you Grandfather, thank you Creator. For I have added to the energy of Life that day in a well-feeling way.

                                                The Secret of Knowledge

                                              

                                                       It is not how Life 

                                                        is defined for you

                                              though this is important to know

                                                     It is how you define Life!

                                                 not with absolute perimeters

                                                 that defines one’s ‘beingness’

                                                 but with perceptual awareness

                                               whose boundaries are defined by

                                                 the essence of the 'observed'