I could hear Alvaro talking as he came down the corridor. When he came into the room, the Elder was with him. I stood up and greeted the two men. “Is there something wrong?” I asked. Looking back now, if I had known where we were headed, I wouldn’t have asked.

           The Elder looked at me and said “Where is Robert?” I told him that he was bathing. The Elder told Tomas to go get him but not to alarm him in any way. Then he turned to Alvaro and said, “Get what I gave to you.” Alvaro left and the Elder told me to sit down.

         “I know you came to hear of the prophecies and to report to your elders. There is a matter I think is very important  and I must ask you to decide whether you want to see this through or not. If you don’t you must leave and come back only when you are sent for. If you stay, it is for the duration of this conflict but, I must know now!” The Elder looked intently at me.

        “May I know what I am agreeing to?” I asked.

        “I’m afraid I can’t tell you,” he said “it’s up to you.”

         Without hesitation I said “Do you need me?”

         The Elder spoke softly, “Only if you can commit, there is no journey back. I do not know the whole of it so I couldn’t tell you even if I wanted to. It could be dangerous, I don’t know. I know inside myself that it could be a lot more than it seems right now.”

        I remembered the intense unification I had felt and the love for this way of life. I heard myself say, “Im here.”

       “For the duration?” asked the Elder.

       “For the duration," I replied. My words sounded far away from me but they were clear and decisive.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

           Robert responded by saying “What you are saying is that the newly born Spirit of a person becomes separated psychically into fragments of its true nature by events which it cannot totally synthesize nor rationalize. Even though it continually tries to put its ‘self’ back together. There can only be harmony when the person learns to be a part of a non-understandable whole. An individuation within this WHOLE.”

        “That’s a glimpse” said Alvaro.” The internal part of you and me must learn to be one omnipresent energy which has put all its energy systems in one vibration. Then this vibration can harmonize with the at-one-ness. This purification is necessary for the stored Spiritual Knowledge to be induced.” 

         I had been listening intently and I added my understanding to the conversation. “It is the eastern system of abolishing the ego and transcending into the creative vibrations of life. The chakras must be attuned into one current vibration. Most people live in feelings and emotions. Most of our categorical knowledge can be a reference rather than a pivotal point of all interaction. Using the vibrational state as a way of Being allows us to act not just react.”

       Alvaro looked at me. “I think I see what the Elder sees in you."  

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                 Alvaro paused a moment then continued, "There must be a return to the Beingness of the entity before words. To the time of belongingness and the feeling of being where it belongs. This stopping-the-world must occur, so that each one us can experience the at-one-ness. This leads one to the existential awareness of being individuated within the Field-of-Life. A unique distinction which can never comprehend its totality but a distinction which can Be within the field of Relativity. This may sound simple but, it's not.

                  "There is the need for the essence of a person, which we call Spirit, to emerge psychically with the internal systems.  This emerging allows a merging with the Spirit-of-all-things-living. Once this centroversion occurs, then the individuated Being begins purification and seeks Harmony with Creation.

                   Alvaro paused, "this is my interpretation of what 'the Elder' spoke to me. Not only was it true for me but, this stopping-the-world and this centroversion of personal energy opened the doorway to an eternal now.

                    "I hope I haven't made this sound too simple because everyday I have to center and work in harmony with the Great Spirit of Life. Is this a different approach to everyday existence?"

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

 

       The room felt warm, like an extension of our energy. Alvaro pulled out a deer pipe and produced a pouch from under his shirt. As he filled the pipe he spoke, “This sacred tobacco has been with us a very long time. This Cuna has sumac, willow bark, tobacco, and a few other things. This pouch belongs to the Elder. He left it for us to enjoy. He tamped the pipe with his thumb and lit it with a piece of cedar. 

      “Hmm,” I wondered.

       Alvaro began to speak as the aroma of cedar and tobacco filled the room. “Robert, hold this in, so that its essence can be absorbed.

       Robert gingerly tasted the pipe and then passed it to Tomas who did not even falter. My turn. Now I don’t particularly like tobacco, so I only took a small puff and to my surprise, it actually didn’t burn my lungs.  I gave the pipe back to Alvaro who knocked it out and filled it again. This time he handed it to me and I to Tomas, then to Robert.  This time Alvaro inhaled more.

       “Hmm,” I thought. I was alert yet relaxed. Invigorated yet calm. My field of energy radiated beyond me and mixed with the radiance within the cave. 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                 Emanation of ‘Creative’  forces

                       Areas of Conciousness

                   Movement of Spiritual energy

                                 

                          Into the Tonality

                    

                    

                     Divisions of ones ‘Being’

          

          How, divided by our perceptual awareness enjoined with presentation of past associations, often cause fragmentation and interrupts the “Chi” flow of the individual.              The Matrix is the conduit through which the Life Force flows or becomes available.

           

       Robert put down his plate as he asked, "Is there a coherent structure to the Kivas. One that's teachable to "others?"

        Alvaro answered, “ I’m not at liberty to  tell you what it takes years to begin and a lifetime to expand. There are however key concepts which are, when comprehended, always with you. There is no set date for actualizing the first set of instructions. There are four Kivas which a person moves through. Only after emerging from one, you enter the other. The knowledge from one expands as you continue into the other.”

      “Is there a curriculum which exists?” Robert sat poised to take notes.

      “I’m trying to answer your questions without being rude.”  Alvaro responded. “ Let me give you an example. You are looking for structure without content. The content helps build the structure.” Alvaro looked at Robert to see if he understood, then continued.  “Content or concepts can often open the door to perceptual awareness. Many people use words as structure.  However, perceptual awareness can bring about the need for words in order to explain or describe what was perceived. This is a cultural difference. The white man comes from one door and we come from another.”

    “In the white man is conditioning which makes him generalize from his way of life to everybody else’s. The Elder told us that comparison always employees judgment . So these judgements lead to a structural basis for life; an understanding of the-way-it-should-be. This comparison causes fragmentation and distortion.” 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

                 What I do at times is tell lies. When my daughter kept my season pass to Dollywood and I had looked for it for a week, I find out that she has the card from the last time we went. Now I could let my emotions go and say, “Jesus you know how long I have looked for that card. You know better than (keeping) it. Jesus!” But one response isn’t the whole pie.

     So because I love her and don’t see any sense in continuing the ‘Karma,’ and because I am more than a reaction, I say, “Thank you for keeping my card and taking care or it for me (then quickly) for us.

      Then I say Thank you Grandfather, thank you Creator. For I have added to the energy of Life that day in a well-feeling way.

                                                The Secret of Knowledge

                                              

                                                       It is not how Life 

                                                        is defined for you

                                              though this is important to know

                                                     It is how you define Life!

                                                 not with absolute perimeters

                                                 that defines one’s ‘beingness’

                                                 but with perceptual awareness

                                               whose boundaries are defined by

                                                 the essence of the 'observed'

                                                      

   Words of Negative Content 

Bring Content into Reality

Fear-Sense of-Loss-

Fill the heart with joy!

               

     More talks with Neishte                

                                                         What is Impecccability?

Impeccability is the ability to use the sacred energy, that's here all the time, with us all the time, and very much in the present. can't do so much about what's gone on in the past, but can do  it in the present right now, between the cracks of time, where we all live. It's the ability to use this sacred energy, in a correct fashion, and when you don't, it's not to run and hide and not acknowledge that. It's to know well maybe I could do a little better than that. 

When I look at it from the standpoint of being correct or the standpoint of being life-fulfillling of giving people what they call personal power, empowerment. we ought to look at that. Surely, as each moment goes by if I don't spend it correctly, and then I think about that, then the next time it comes around, I'll be advised, it's called refinement by the way,  I'll refine this down until gradually I begin to, not only understand what it is in me or comprehend it, but to see it in others without hating or being mad or judging.

This is all important. A friend of mine gave me a very important clue to this aspect. not long ago. He had told me something two or three times he was going to do and each time of course, he had gotten busy, went home and forgot it. So when it came up again he goes, "Well, I need to pay attention to this. I need to make a difference when this comes up right now. I need to do this for you." So he picks up his little recorder and goes into it, " Listen, this is the third or fourth time this is coming around and make this note to myself tomorrow when I go back and review it, do this act!  Create these things I promised I would. and he looked at me and said, "now tomorrow, it'll catch up to me again but at least this time, I did something that weren't  present in the past times that I promised and that may lead me to do what's correct. Well we don't need a recorder to go around and do this. We've got it built into ourselves to do that but sometimes we need a little hint or a little notion as to what's goin on. I can tell you when these things go on between family or close loved ones or whatever, that's there's almost a feeling of disempowerment.

I watched my children grow up and go into the world of man. Then there's so many things that I haven't been able to give them. I'm good till a certain age because I can afford the toys and the gifts and the games and all this. After a certain point it crosses into adult games and adult things. I can barely afford those for myself. I can barely afford them for all of us such as a car and a tv, computer. I can't really tell you I do all this myself because I don't. There's help from within the community, to that degree. Nobody's adding up what I do and what counts so very much, within the realm of everyday existenence,  along with impeccablity, one much reach a certain point, in life, to where they are really a human being, a spirit, an invisible part of the creators universe that is here living, acting and being a recipient of these gifts. How many gifts ya got? A lot more than you see when you're down on yourself and oh how stupid and oh much you've failed, how much you're not like the next guy.

I became an icon unto myself. As full as it was yet as empty, more empty than it is full. If I had the answer to every days problems, when I see, god forbid, presidents, prime ministers, with no more idea of what's going on than we do, ruling over people... Perhaps my idea of ruling over people, is the ability to let them see for themselves and do better. But I tell you it's kind of hard with family because of the love which gets in the way. I don't want to do anything about you because you're a gift from the Creator. You're very much as much of that essence as I am. But, when you're young, you see many glimpses of yourself from outside. and if you're not careful, these things shape who you are, your concept of yourself. Makes a lot of difference. Yourself is not that existential being that's in there. It is how you see yourself, your beingness in relationship to so many others.

I use self here as a set aside with quotes around it. to show you that we really don't all know what we mean when we talk about this concept. Beingness and being a human being and being open to the gifts of creation are a lot more than what's outside or what car you drive or even what you eat. It's the gifts that's  been given you and, certain inalienable rights. 

I'm here by the grace, cause I sure, at times, didn't do what it took to be here. I appreciate the Creator and  I'm grateful, more than grateful for what has been given to me. I'm more than grateful for my family. I'm grateful for the battles I've won, I'm grateful for the stances I've took, I'm grateful for. the land that I have founded, and the church that I helped bring around. Not church in the typical sense but a community, a kiva of people, not having all the answers but searching for them. You're free inside your very spirit. Then I encourage you to understand what impeccablity is.

True intelligence is living your life the best way you can live it with what's at hand. And I've got to tell you that there's more at hand that what you've experienced of what you've thought about. the universe is always open, always new, always expanding

 This is written for emergence through the matrix and survival of the Gift-of-Life within you.  There are always those who love emerging into the next now. There is always unfolding as we move through Time and Space from our vantage point of Here & Now. So be here now.

    The Next Step

Inner dimensional awareness

through systemic yoga

"where you are as you are"

The choice towards 

personal commitment

to life enrichment 

          The Elder looked at Robert, then looked as if he was assembling his thoughts before he said, "you know a lot of things which shifted your reality around. There you were comfortable enough in your society, in your schema of the world. Now something causes conflict in your concept of government, of country, of the world, of your place in life. If all this is true, then what Robert?" Here the Elder waited.

             Robert looked helpless, no words did he have for this. A shake of his head, raised eyebrows and a shrug of his shoulders signifying, "I don't know."

            The Elder continued , "We have a cultural difference here. Before we can continue there must be agreements reached."

               Robert started to say something but the Elder raised his hand stifling the remark as he continued, "One more thought. If you get caught, and put to interrogation, what would you tell of us? Of our situation. If you knew more you'd tell more."

               Robert stiffened a bit, "I wouldn't divulge anything to them! I'd tell them nothing." Robert looked offended by the statement.

                 "Before you shape shift on me," the Elder continued, " That remark is a remark of an arm chair cowboy. I just gave you an herb which allows you to center and become peaceful. Do you not think that 'They' have more? Sodium Pentathol is not a household experience. If these people could and would consort with aliens against their own, what do you think they would do to you."

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                   While all the experts are getting compensation

            to research and fact find about 'what is best for you,

                     What is truly best for you?

                Exercise, nutrition, herbs and vitamins, peace of mind, 

                      release of stress, etc.

              

 Personal point

I can show sentiment without

impairment of my judgement.

I'm not trying 

to tell you right or wrong

agree disagree

I am trying to present 

something to knowledge. 

                             What keeps us from actualizing our potential? 

                                                Lots of Things...

                               Can we learn to use the natural gifts 

                                    that are granted to each of us 

                                 by the mere fact of our existence?

                The way you perceive things, events, factors, has to be based upon a personal structure of events: or one must have transcended, at least Spiritually, the environment. In which case there has to be a perceptual knowledge of the environment in which the Spirit finds "itself ." 

            Education of Being is when a person knows this transcendence. Spiritual Beingness must transcend and give back. The Priesthood is the Beingness giving back and Being-in-the-World as an existential factor.

                                                        Clearing Yourself

                                  When someone is not content in the 'Environment'

                                               Then one should change it.

                        Either by doing their share or by excusing themselves from the situation.

                                   Remember Environment takes into consideration 

                                                      EVERY factor.

                                          Then is every factor contributing

                                                  or, what is their input?

                                    Do a list of good or not for each person,

                                                   for each factor;

                                                    1 - 100 - 1000 ?

                                    Then do a list of your"Self," realistically.

                                                            - - -

                                   Enviornments are a blend of many factors

                                          Economic - Social - Cultural 

                                Every Enviornment has factors and you are 

                                        one factor in everything you see,

                                  You thought that it was only your world?

  

     We are able to express our understandings in a language (words) which does not contain many Being-in-the-world terms except by hyphenating them to imply a state of existence within yet beyond the constructs of everyday language. Other groups, languages do have these distinctions. We are able to do this because one's internal comprehension isn't only tied to conceptual structures of existence but to the perceptual as well.

     Perceptual awareness is the first thing all of us enter into. Watch babies as they grow. Words have been looked upon as the development of a higher state of the growth process. "Baby said a word!" Everybody feels good about this. But the spirit is beginning to express itself to others who are perceived in the immediate environment. It is an expression of the comprehension of a multifaceted input perceived by its Beingness. 

    Beyond and before words, Spirit existed and began it's voyage through time and Space.

   What will I leave behind?

      Nothing, because the concept 

                of "behind"

         could be a false consideration

    Since everything that was and 

        still is in some form 

         has at its constant a

           sense of now-ness,

             both then and now,

    So how can I say

     What I've left behind 

       because seen or not seen,

        all things in existence

          are

           Somewhere, someplace,

             Here

               Now

But I think we share something, a sense of Being

              "This may truly be the beginning of the end" I thought.

               Robert sat there, dejected and resolute. Lost in time, out of space. "That's why I came here. Now I realize the fruitlessness of the whole thing....for a time here, I thought I was safe. and things looked different." Robert looked at me,  the energy gone into dullness

               I sat back. I've got to admit that I felt like the fly swatter had hit us...splattered in all directions. I felt the anguish and the existential void.

             I had to fight hard here and remember the moments gone by, especially the touching of that sacred energy. My personal energy was coming back. I had to remember that I was just passing through and I too was only here by the Creator's gift of life. All this stuff Robert had told me still had a hold on me, for my imagery of the situation had been inductive. Now I had regained my composure but I knew that Robert had spoken the 'truth'. Now I had to let 'the Elder' answer this. 'The Elder'...I felt my strength come back.. Robert was still sitting there, scanning his systems for a glimmer of hope.

        "Robert," I said. He looked up, energy gone. "You know the truth of events up till now which I didn't know but somehow, I'm not surprised. I must tell you that whatever 'the Elder' says I'm bound by...but I will tell you this, that when people come to me about external realizations and they hope to get even or make changes with and to the external world, all I can tell them is ya'll see the truth, why do you continue to bitch about the way things are. The 'What-is" of a situation opens doors to clarity. The bitching or complaining continually to others breeds no solutions. So, let's see what 'the Elder' says. Thank you for dealing the truth to me. As a race of people, we've been there before. 'The Elder' will have access to these understandings. I certainly appreciate it. Why don't we enjoy the pipe and sleep on it? I know you're tired and 'the Elder' will send for us...if he don't just show up."

     To my surprise, Robert laid back and pulled the blanket over himself. "I think I will rest a bit."he said.

      I got up and punched around in the fire and sat on the warm hearth."She olie!" I thought

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"        

We all have so much in common

Except the ability to see

That life is meant for all of us

So there will be an Earth 

for future I's and me's  

                                                    So as the time grows long and late

                                                   The Creator knew 

                                                        that the words couldn't wait  

                                                    So here it is

                                                          as it was told to me

                                                    The Creators words 

                                                          to know 

                                                             or to disbelieve 

                                                     The choice is yours

                                                          and it is plain to see

                                                     That the words 

                                                           are for us all

                                                      But perhaps just you and me 

                                                              are all that's left 

                                                                  to be free.

 

        Without a wobble I continued, We have tales of genetic manipulation which was done on Earth sometime ago. We also have stories of transplanting and movement between space and Earth. In fact, genetic engineering is really not uniquely ours. That’s why I asked to see if there were similarities between different systems.”

       He relaxed a bit which seemed to calm the waters. “There was a great deal about genetic reformulation and cloning. Even genetic reorganization. What all this was, we were not able to comprehend because more in-depth reassurances would have required more time. And as you know, we ran out of accessibility

         I didn’t pretend to understand all of this, but I was sure I could grasp the concepts. I didn’t want to digress from the dialog. 

     “What about propulsion systems and the use of electromagnetics?” I asked.

     “Try bioelectromagnetics, and polar reversals using this system. Sort of a reversal of polarity in a covering which reacts like cells. Sensing and renewing. I can’t really explain it but John and the physicist went ballistic. This discovered information was the subject of hours of theorizing to which I listened.” Robert excitedly said. “Some of those days before the tell-it stage were wild with discoveries. Lord, we were flying high and really, explorers of the cyber kind. Yet, we should have known that there maybe a sinister side.”

    

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

    “I’m  having a tremendous sense of security,” Robert blurted out. All of that clandestine shit seems to be distant from me now, sort of trivial.” Here he paused…”but I know it’s not...it seems that I can’t accept it all…even though I can see the whole process…it seems so far fetched.” Robert looked at ‘The Elder’ with a look of perseveration, as if everything just didn’t make sense.

       Alvaro punched me and whispered, “he can’t psychically see closure or conclusions because he has not given complete credibility to what he came to tell us.”

      

       Robert ate another biscuit. So I hesitated for a moment, reaching for a correct way to say what I was perceiving.

     

     “Let me ask you this. Did the schematics tell of building anything other than the computer?” I queried.

      

     “Yes” came the remark, quick, no hesitating. “There were schematics dealing with modifications in aerospace technology, interface equipment to the computer, cryogenic suspension systems, assimilation of materials which we can’t mix, and the list goes on.”

        

    “Anything dealing with genetic codes?” I asked before I realized it.

         

     Robert had the funny look again. “What would make you ask a question like that?” Robert shot back. His eyes were sort of ‘wild’ looking. Is he scared I wondered?

         

     He looked at me to see if I had noticed the awkward moment. I just looked beyond him. There was no ripple inside my beingness. I had seen what I needed to ’see’. I didn’t exactly know where I was headed, but I knew he had not spoken all he could. What it was I did not know, but I also didn’t know the ‘intent’ behind the withholding. It was enough for him to be knocked off his ‘imagery’ of how good he had cloaked the whole truth of his story. Maybe I could use this window of opportunity effectively.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

        

 Then there is the birthing stage of BEING. When you 'feel' connected to you, peacefully; peaceful in feeling-peaceful in emotion-peaceful mentally, no self-perpetuating system is active; then the innocence of childhood perception comes to fore and you can choose whether to be direct. or subtle in your perception. The golden rule is: the more 'you' are 'Being' your 'Being,' the more impeccably you become to your 'Beingness.' Then you can 'listen' and 'act' with the will of Grandfather and with all of your 'immortal spirit.'

 To see the universe in all its wonders,

To see man and all his blunders

All in all its one in the same

Although hard to see at times which comes first?

The wonders or the blunders