The Elder took something from his pocket and motioned for Alvaro, Tomas and I to sit down. He took Alvaro’s head in his hand and put salve of some sort on his head, right in the middle of his eyebrows.Then he did it to Tomas, then me. 

    “What is this stuff?” I wondered. 
    “That will keep you centered. Do not react to anything I do. Do not judge anything I might say. This is an induction. Stay steadfast as it goes on, regardless of what you hear. No flights of fantasy.”
      Robert came in looking refreshed.
     “Come have some tea,” the Elder said. 
      I began to feel was if my personal energy field had become unified and grown, radiating in all directions. This sense of energy seemed to permeate the energy-of-life, without any sense of boundaries. My awareness and at-one-ness was still and tranquil. I looked at Alvaro, who made a slight motion with his hand. Thumbs up was the acknowledging gesture. I could ‘feel,’ perceive, sense everyone’s personal energy within the boundaries of my own. Power…Being Power. It was as if we were in a hologram. On the other hand, Roberts personal energy felt tightly compact, closely grouped around him. Everyone else felt as if we had molded and merged with the overall energy. The crown of my head felt open, like a funnel. The same place as the soft spot of my child's head. There was an intensity to it yet also a stillness, like being in the eye of a hurricane. 
     The cups were filled and fresh. Pieces of home made sourdough bread, fresh vegetables and fruit were brought in by a woman I hadn’t seen before. “Thank you Grandfather, Thank you Creator,” the Elder said as he handed Robert the bread. “You look quite refreshed.”
     “I am,” Robert said. “ I have never felt so safe,” he added as he looked around at each one of us. 
     In his demeanor, I knew that he had picked up a difference in us somehow.
     “I’m glad you can be comfortable here. But I have to tell you all that Alvaro brought back distressing news from the village.” The Elder spoke as he looked at us one by one. “It seems that someone who came to the meeting the other night is being hunted by men who have little manners and less information. Why they want this person is a secret. That they want this person is quite plain. Do any of you know the reason for this continual inquiry?”


-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

           I could hear Alvaro talking as he came down the corridor. When he came into the room, the Elder was with him. I stood up and greeted the two men. “Is there something wrong?” I asked. Looking back now, if I had known where we were headed, I wouldn’t have asked.

           The Elder looked at me and said “Where is Robert?” I told him that he was bathing. The Elder told Tomas to go get him but not to alarm him in any way. Then he turned to Alvaro and said, “Get what I gave to you.” Alvaro left and the Elder told me to sit down.

         “I know you came to hear of the prophecies and to report to your elders. There is a matter I think is very important  and I must ask you to decide whether you want to see this through or not. If you don’t you must leave and come back only when you are sent for. If you stay, it is for the duration of this conflict but, I must know now!” The Elder looked intently at me.

        “May I know what I am agreeing to?” I asked.

        “I’m afraid I can’t tell you,” he said “it’s up to you.”

         Without hesitation I said “Do you need me?”

         The Elder spoke softly, “Only if you can commit, there is no journey back. I do not know the whole of it so I couldn’t tell you even if I wanted to. It could be dangerous, I don’t know. I know inside myself that it could be a lot more than it seems right now.”

        I remembered the intense unification I had felt and the love for this way of life. I heard myself say, “Im here.”

       “For the duration?” asked the Elder.

       “For the duration," I replied. My words sounded far away from me but they were clear and decisive.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

           Robert responded by saying “What you are saying is that the newly born Spirit of a person becomes separated psychically into fragments of its true nature by events which it cannot totally synthesize nor rationalize. Even though it continually tries to put its ‘self’ back together. There can only be harmony when the person learns to be a part of a non-understandable whole. An individuation within this WHOLE.”

        “That’s a glimpse” said Alvaro.” The internal part of you and me must learn to be one omnipresent energy which has put all its energy systems in one vibration. Then this vibration can harmonize with the at-one-ness. This purification is necessary for the stored Spiritual Knowledge to be induced.” 

         I had been listening intently and I added my understanding to the conversation. “It is the eastern system of abolishing the ego and transcending into the creative vibrations of life. The chakras must be attuned into one current vibration. Most people live in feelings and emotions. Most of our categorical knowledge can be a reference rather than a pivotal point of all interaction. Using the vibrational state as a way of Being allows us to act not just react.”

       Alvaro looked at me. “I think I see what the Elder sees in you."  

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                 Alvaro paused a moment then continued, "There must be a return to the Beingness of the entity before words. To the time of belongingness and the feeling of being where it belongs. This stopping-the-world must occur, so that each one us can experience the at-one-ness. This leads one to the existential awareness of being individuated within the Field-of-Life. A unique distinction which can never comprehend its totality but a distinction which can Be within the field of Relativity. This may sound simple but, it's not.

                  "There is the need for the essence of a person, which we call Spirit, to emerge psychically with the internal systems.  This emerging allows a merging with the Spirit-of-all-things-living. Once this centroversion occurs, then the individuated Being begins purification and seeks Harmony with Creation.

                   Alvaro paused, "this is my interpretation of what 'the Elder' spoke to me. Not only was it true for me but, this stopping-the-world and this centroversion of personal energy opened the doorway to an eternal now.

                    "I hope I haven't made this sound too simple because everyday I have to center and work in harmony with the Great Spirit of Life. Is this a different approach to everyday existence?"

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

 

       The room felt warm, like an extension of our energy. Alvaro pulled out a deer pipe and produced a pouch from under his shirt. As he filled the pipe he spoke, “This sacred tobacco has been with us a very long time. This Cuna has sumac, willow bark, tobacco, and a few other things. This pouch belongs to the Elder. He left it for us to enjoy. He tamped the pipe with his thumb and lit it with a piece of cedar. 

      “Hmm,” I wondered.

       Alvaro began to speak as the aroma of cedar and tobacco filled the room. “Robert, hold this in, so that its essence can be absorbed.

       Robert gingerly tasted the pipe and then passed it to Tomas who did not even falter. My turn. Now I don’t particularly like tobacco, so I only took a small puff and to my surprise, it actually didn’t burn my lungs.  I gave the pipe back to Alvaro who knocked it out and filled it again. This time he handed it to me and I to Tomas, then to Robert.  This time Alvaro inhaled more.

       “Hmm,” I thought. I was alert yet relaxed. Invigorated yet calm. My field of energy radiated beyond me and mixed with the radiance within the cave. 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                 Emanation of ‘Creative’  forces

                       Areas of Conciousness

                   Movement of Spiritual energy

                                 

                          Into the Tonality

                    

                    

                     Divisions of ones ‘Being’

          

          How, divided by our perceptual awareness enjoined with presentation of past associations, often cause fragmentation and interrupts the “Chi” flow of the individual.              The Matrix is the conduit through which the Life Force flows or becomes available.

           

       Robert put down his plate as he asked, "Is there a coherent structure to the Kivas. One that's teachable to "others?"

        Alvaro answered, “ I’m not at liberty to  tell you what it takes years to begin and a lifetime to expand. There are however key concepts which are, when comprehended, always with you. There is no set date for actualizing the first set of instructions. There are four Kivas which a person moves through. Only after emerging from one, you enter the other. The knowledge from one expands as you continue into the other.”

      “Is there a curriculum which exists?” Robert sat poised to take notes.

      “I’m trying to answer your questions without being rude.”  Alvaro responded. “ Let me give you an example. You are looking for structure without content. The content helps build the structure.” Alvaro looked at Robert to see if he understood, then continued.  “Content or concepts can often open the door to perceptual awareness. Many people use words as structure.  However, perceptual awareness can bring about the need for words in order to explain or describe what was perceived. This is a cultural difference. The white man comes from one door and we come from another.”

    “In the white man is conditioning which makes him generalize from his way of life to everybody else’s. The Elder told us that comparison always employees judgment . So these judgements lead to a structural basis for life; an understanding of the-way-it-should-be. This comparison causes fragmentation and distortion.” 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"