“I’m  having a tremendous sense of security,” Robert blurted out. All of that clandestine shit seems to be distant from me now, sort of trivial.” Here he paused…”but I know it’s not...it seems that I can’t accept it all…even though I can see the whole process…it seems so far fetched.” Robert looked at ‘The Elder’ with a look of perseveration, as if everything just didn’t make sense.

       Alvaro punched me and whispered, “he can’t psychically see closure or conclusions because he has not given complete credibility to what he came to tell us.”

      

       Robert ate another biscuit. So I hesitated for a moment, reaching for a correct way to say what I was perceiving.

     

     “Let me ask you this. Did the schematics tell of building anything other than the computer?” I queried.

      

     “Yes” came the remark, quick, no hesitating. “There were schematics dealing with modifications in aerospace technology, interface equipment to the computer, cryogenic suspension systems, assimilation of materials which we can’t mix, and the list goes on.”

        

    “Anything dealing with genetic codes?” I asked before I realized it.

         

     Robert had the funny look again. “What would make you ask a question like that?” Robert shot back. His eyes were sort of ‘wild’ looking. Is he scared I wondered?

         

     He looked at me to see if I had noticed the awkward moment. I just looked beyond him. There was no ripple inside my beingness. I had seen what I needed to ’see’. I didn’t exactly know where I was headed, but I knew he had not spoken all he could. What it was I did not know, but I also didn’t know the ‘intent’ behind the withholding. It was enough for him to be knocked off his ‘imagery’ of how good he had cloaked the whole truth of his story. Maybe I could use this window of opportunity effectively.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

        

 Then there is the birthing stage of BEING. When you 'feel' connected to you, peacefully; peaceful in feeling-peaceful in emotion-peaceful mentally, no self-perpetuating system is active; then the innocence of childhood perception comes to fore and you can choose whether to be direct. or subtle in your perception. The golden rule is: the more 'you' are 'Being' your 'Being,' the more impeccably you become to your 'Beingness.' Then you can 'listen' and 'act' with the will of Grandfather and with all of your 'immortal spirit.'

 To see the universe in all its wonders,

To see man and all his blunders

All in all its one in the same

Although hard to see at times which comes first?

The wonders or the blunders 

 More from “Into the Night”

 

The next thing I know, I was awakened by a gentle shake. I opened my eyes to see the Elder bent over me.

"Come along in a bit," he said.

I got up and doused my face with water, brushed my teeth and went to the kitchen. The Elder was in there with breakfast. He motioned me in and told the lady to bring me some coffee. Everything looked different and smelled wonderful.  The coffee was really bursting with flavor. It was good to be alive!

"You know," the Elder said, "Alvaro told me some good things about you. Even Tomas gives you respect." The Elder looked at me and continued, "have you had a chance to speak with Robert?"

I realized that the request had been sort of a priority. I told the Elder that I hadn't had the opportunity. I told him what had transpired last night. I told him that I had turned in early and the reason I did so. For a bit we both sat there as he appeared to be soaking in what I had said to him.

"Did you learn more while walking in this 'space?'

I told him I had. That some questions in me were looked at but, I didn't remember formulating them. In the 'looking at the wholeness of many things, there were aspects which tended to make more full the partial understandings I personally had schematized.

"For example," he said.

"Well, right after I understood that man's law governed the world right now and that Spiritual Laws govern our existence, I had another encounter. The interface of my knowledge and systemic knowledge allowed a sort of synthesis to occur."

"Can you put this into words?" the Elder asked.

I looked at him and I let that magnificent imagery tell the essence.

"Feelings and emotions often drain the energy field and introvert our personal Spirit. For example: aloneness isn't the same thing as being lonely. But the emotion of loneliness coupled with the feeling of aloneness, produce a major affect on all systems. So does anger, fear, jealousy, etc...Other feelings can trigger confidence, increase energy, have emotional fulfillment. If the binary effect of feelings and emotions can be transcended, then there is existential feelings and impingement upon the emotions which tell our personal Spirit the 'what-is' of the existential encounter. Here I had a reminder that our existential perception is either direct information or the existential perception is a filter.

When you search and go to an area you’ve never been in before

And you realize that all you have to comprehend/view this with (is how you perceived your path)

There’s some timage where the joy of being fades into 

“Unknowing guess”

Let me tell you that you got more going 

Then just your “knowledge”

You got the gift- from- grandfather;

The prime directive to help ‘you’ where you’re at. 

 Warm fires and cozy spaces

Waiting just inside the door.

Moving, passing through

Yet a place to rest.

Always centered

       So many emotions 

            feelings 

       Hidden inside

            part of the past left there

       Occasionally something stirs the past 

          and things get tangled together

            rolling, enmeshed, combining,

       Joining in reflections,

           refractions

             becoming twisted

              as if all of it made sense.

       Taking control-becoming the most important thing

            making everything else small in comparison

               going nowhere-leading nowhere.

        Don't stay there

             return to the present!

        The most important things are yet to be.