More from “Into the Night”

 

The next thing I know, I was awakened by a gentle shake. I opened my eyes to see the Elder bent over me.

"Come along in a bit," he said.

I got up and doused my face with water, brushed my teeth and went to the kitchen. The Elder was in there with breakfast. He motioned me in and told the lady to bring me some coffee. Everything looked different and smelled wonderful.  The coffee was really bursting with flavor. It was good to be alive!

"You know," the Elder said, "Alvaro told me some good things about you. Even Tomas gives you respect." The Elder looked at me and continued, "have you had a chance to speak with Robert?"

I realized that the request had been sort of a priority. I told the Elder that I hadn't had the opportunity. I told him what had transpired last night. I told him that I had turned in early and the reason I did so. For a bit we both sat there as he appeared to be soaking in what I had said to him.

"Did you learn more while walking in this 'space?'

I told him I had. That some questions in me were looked at but, I didn't remember formulating them. In the 'looking at the wholeness of many things, there were aspects which tended to make more full the partial understandings I personally had schematized.

"For example," he said.

"Well, right after I understood that man's law governed the world right now and that Spiritual Laws govern our existence, I had another encounter. The interface of my knowledge and systemic knowledge allowed a sort of synthesis to occur."

"Can you put this into words?" the Elder asked.

I looked at him and I let that magnificent imagery tell the essence.

"Feelings and emotions often drain the energy field and introvert our personal Spirit. For example: aloneness isn't the same thing as being lonely. But the emotion of loneliness coupled with the feeling of aloneness, produce a major affect on all systems. So does anger, fear, jealousy, etc...Other feelings can trigger confidence, increase energy, have emotional fulfillment. If the binary effect of feelings and emotions can be transcended, then there is existential feelings and impingement upon the emotions which tell our personal Spirit the 'what-is' of the existential encounter. Here I had a reminder that our existential perception is either direct information or the existential perception is a filter.

When you search and go to an area you’ve never been in before

And you realize that all you have to comprehend/view this with (is how you perceived your path)

There’s some timage where the joy of being fades into 

“Unknowing guess”

Let me tell you that you got more going 

Then just your “knowledge”

You got the gift- from- grandfather;

The prime directive to help ‘you’ where you’re at. 

 Warm fires and cozy spaces

Waiting just inside the door.

Moving, passing through

Yet a place to rest.

Always centered

       So many emotions 

            feelings 

       Hidden inside

            part of the past left there

       Occasionally something stirs the past 

          and things get tangled together

            rolling, enmeshed, combining,

       Joining in reflections,

           refractions

             becoming twisted

              as if all of it made sense.

       Taking control-becoming the most important thing

            making everything else small in comparison

               going nowhere-leading nowhere.

        Don't stay there

             return to the present!

        The most important things are yet to be.

          You'll hear a lot about 'self-realization,' and I am for this. In our world, we would first ascertain whether the 'self' doing the 'realization' has an adequate framework of self-knowledge. Knowledge not just based on an image of 'self' but one founded upon being a participant in your personal life, everyday, both physically as well as phenomenologically, internally as well as externally; with the integration ability of a Dweller-on-earth, to manifest Here; in the Here and Now.

           Self-realization should lead to Harmonic convergence. There is a questing - and - questioning - truly searching. Many Beings give up and learn to live within parameters. Unfortunately the 'parameters' are conditioned reality. Conditioned by fragmented feelings and emotions, and by attempts to get over fragmentation on the psychic level. By this I mean removal of blockages to their energy because of trauma. Removal allows energy to be freed to lots more-personal energy. 

        Hopefully this 'fragmentation' I experience frees me when I understand the process. All the knowleddge in the world cannot combat the unhappy Spirit. And for many, this can not be avoided for in many, many instances living their personal life is Spiritually miserable. Here the effort of a few individuals becomes fulfilled by seeing life grow in Relative Space with the acknowledgement of a Creation process of which you and I are the beneficiaries. 

  

Learning the sameness 

of everyday living, 

working out the Life processes as

They go on - each and everyday 

Slowly healing the warring emotions and feelings  

of centuries of wandering -  lost and fragmented.

There is a difference between 

Spiritual insight and that which is

born out of the necessity of the situation.

There is a difference here.

This is not to negate the greatness of the moment

nor the grandeur of the process of enlightenment.

Donn't wait until 

you're broken and bent

to enjoy the world.

Enjoy it while you're strong - vibrant

and can ride

 the current of creation.