Alvaro paused a moment then continued, "There must be a return to the Beingness of the entity before words. To the time of belongingness and the feeling of being where it belongs. This stopping-the-world must occur, so that each one us can experience the at-one-ness. This leads one to the existential awareness of being individuated within the Field-of-Life. A unique distinction which can never comprehend its totality but a distinction which can Be within the field of Relativity. This may sound simple but, it's not.

                  "There is the need for the essence of a person, which we call Spirit, to emerge psychically with the internal systems.  This emerging allows a merging with the Spirit-of-all-things-living. Once this centroversion occurs, then the individuated Being begins purification and seeks Harmony with Creation.

                   Alvaro paused, "this is my interpretation of what 'the Elder' spoke to me. Not only was it true for me but, this stopping-the-world and this centroversion of personal energy opened the doorway to an eternal now.

                    "I hope I haven't made this sound too simple because everyday I have to center and work in harmony with the Great Spirit of Life. Is this a different approach to everyday existence?"

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

 

       The room felt warm, like an extension of our energy. Alvaro pulled out a deer pipe and produced a pouch from under his shirt. As he filled the pipe he spoke, “This sacred tobacco has been with us a very long time. This Cuna has sumac, willow bark, tobacco, and a few other things. This pouch belongs to the Elder. He left it for us to enjoy. He tamped the pipe with his thumb and lit it with a piece of cedar. 

      “Hmm,” I wondered.

       Alvaro began to speak as the aroma of cedar and tobacco filled the room. “Robert, hold this in, so that its essence can be absorbed.

       Robert gingerly tasted the pipe and then passed it to Tomas who did not even falter. My turn. Now I don’t particularly like tobacco, so I only took a small puff and to my surprise, it actually didn’t burn my lungs.  I gave the pipe back to Alvaro who knocked it out and filled it again. This time he handed it to me and I to Tomas, then to Robert.  This time Alvaro inhaled more.

       “Hmm,” I thought. I was alert yet relaxed. Invigorated yet calm. My field of energy radiated beyond me and mixed with the radiance within the cave. 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

                 Emanation of ‘Creative’  forces

                       Areas of Conciousness

                   Movement of Spiritual energy

                                 

                          Into the Tonality

                    

                    

                     Divisions of ones ‘Being’

          

          How, divided by our perceptual awareness enjoined with presentation of past associations, often cause fragmentation and interrupts the “Chi” flow of the individual.              The Matrix is the conduit through which the Life Force flows or becomes available.

           

       Robert put down his plate as he asked, "Is there a coherent structure to the Kivas. One that's teachable to "others?"

        Alvaro answered, “ I’m not at liberty to  tell you what it takes years to begin and a lifetime to expand. There are however key concepts which are, when comprehended, always with you. There is no set date for actualizing the first set of instructions. There are four Kivas which a person moves through. Only after emerging from one, you enter the other. The knowledge from one expands as you continue into the other.”

      “Is there a curriculum which exists?” Robert sat poised to take notes.

      “I’m trying to answer your questions without being rude.”  Alvaro responded. “ Let me give you an example. You are looking for structure without content. The content helps build the structure.” Alvaro looked at Robert to see if he understood, then continued.  “Content or concepts can often open the door to perceptual awareness. Many people use words as structure.  However, perceptual awareness can bring about the need for words in order to explain or describe what was perceived. This is a cultural difference. The white man comes from one door and we come from another.”

    “In the white man is conditioning which makes him generalize from his way of life to everybody else’s. The Elder told us that comparison always employees judgment . So these judgements lead to a structural basis for life; an understanding of the-way-it-should-be. This comparison causes fragmentation and distortion.” 

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

                 What I do at times is tell lies. When my daughter kept my season pass to Dollywood and I had looked for it for a week, I find out that she has the card from the last time we went. Now I could let my emotions go and say, “Jesus you know how long I have looked for that card. You know better than (keeping) it. Jesus!” But one response isn’t the whole pie.

     So because I love her and don’t see any sense in continuing the ‘Karma,’ and because I am more than a reaction, I say, “Thank you for keeping my card and taking care or it for me (then quickly) for us.

      Then I say Thank you Grandfather, thank you Creator. For I have added to the energy of Life that day in a well-feeling way.

                                                The Secret of Knowledge

                                              

                                                       It is not how Life 

                                                        is defined for you

                                              though this is important to know

                                                     It is how you define Life!

                                                 not with absolute perimeters

                                                 that defines one’s ‘beingness’

                                                 but with perceptual awareness

                                               whose boundaries are defined by

                                                 the essence of the 'observed'

                                                      

   Words of Negative Content 

Bring Content into Reality

Fear-Sense of-Loss-

Fill the heart with joy!