Thursday, December 31, 2020


One sister was my fathers pick.

My other was my mothers.

I guess that left me somewhere in between.

Life is a long hard road

when you’re so young

and you don’t know which way to go.

Somewhere deep down you know 

That you’re lost and nowhere is a friend.

Mattered not the frame of mind

for deep, way down inside

a spirit cried.

Even through this existential despair

an attitude was formed.

I didn’t need any of them.

There was no God.

How could someone who loved me

throw me into such a plight?

For me, time stood still.

Somewhere at the center of it all

I came up lacking, never full.

The worse thing, I was never here,

in balance with the creators reality.

So it was for many a year.

I had quit crying for love

How could I know a non-existent thing?

It was a road stretching into nowhere.

The quest for being emerged in a Buddhist book 

And a ray of light opened in me

If I could only know then perhaps I’d be satisfied,

A reason for everything somewhere could be seen.

So in sandaled feet I walked the Earth

Forgotten was the child within.

It was not for others perhaps, but was with me.

Then one day, I gained my place

Or so it seemed.

Deep, still, down inside

The pleasures of Earth could not fill.

The void when I closed my eyes

Grew far, grew wide,

Grew forever.

Was this all there was?

I felt lost and turned to take my

Wants where I found them.

Now drinking began to fill my time

For time loomed long into a far, distant destiny.

Late, when the sun was gone, on a winters eve,

I found my spirit or it found me.

Up mountain, down hill, every direction

I had it, it had me.

All my life had come to be,

Perhaps freedom was for me.

Saturday, November 21, 2020

                                 True power comes with mastery of the self in harmony with the rest of life

Sunday, October 18, 2020


“This could be a good time!”

“There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are torn apart and will suffer greatly.

Know the river has its destination. The elders say we must let go of the shore push off into the middle of the rivers, keep our eyes open, and our heads above water. And I say, see who is there with you and celebrate. At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally, least of all ourselves. For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.”

“The time for the lone wolf is over. Gather yourselves! Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary. All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.”

“We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.”

           -unnamed Hopi elder-

Saturday, August 22, 2020




This concept can become positive rather than negative if you realize that today is the yesterday of tomorrow. So if I do some ‘energy’ gifts, and mental clarity today, then tomorrow, when it becomes today, will contain that which in the past was able to give insight, energy and propellant for today and tomorrow.

Take the space between the time to plant a deed or a seed which will bring life energy!

This will make the past full of impetus for the expanding ‘life space’ we personally live in, instead of the past always telling you what you should be doing or not doing in order to have a tomorrow or ever a ‘free’ day.

Sunday, July 12, 2020

        We are dealing with people/agencies, which have at their disposal the means to accomplish any objective. History is replete with examples of men/groups/ countries /who used the rights of kings over their surfs/citizens.
        There are things occurring in this world that no one truly wants. Is there a fight over what part of the Earth can sustain life because ones’ own home is ruined or polluted?
        There must be some biological part in us wanting to live where we grew up/where we were born.
        But let me tell you something that affects us all-the environment, the destroyers of the Earth, the controllers.

Monday, June 22, 2020

From talks with Ne ish te

The following is from a talk from Neishte.

Outside the Church-Kiva, we have learned that in order to exist in that environment, we have to strategically hide behind our ‘Images’.

While this can be said to be universal behavior, the difference is in the “psychological defenses” of our projected self. When a person is ego-centered in the image the psychological strategies come into play automatically. This movement is “conserve the projected image at all costs!” Loss of this ‘image’ could be dangerous to the well-being of the person. These complex psychic interactions cause problems, cause problems, cause problems. These situations when encountered on the outside are only Image conflicts and it means there has to be a Reality check on our INTENT and DIRECTION.

If you heal the Spirit you heal the body, and to Be your self is a step in the right direction. Furthermore, there is a discipline and a structure to everything that surrounds us. To vibrate harmoniously with these  things is definitely healing. (feels good too!)

The learning of ‘Human things’ and the knowing of relationships opens portals of existence which are the Spiritual Legacy of each one of us. This is the rightful place of mankind as we step into the future second by second.