Here, the elder turned and looked at me.

"I continued , "I say this not a a riddle or to be clever. I say this with the utmost respect. I heard a holy man once say, "I prefer the perception of Being to the concept of a self'. I guess that sums up in words what I find difficult to express in a few short minutes."

I looked at this man, my mind clear and open, my beingness, also clear and open. This was just like the time he put his forehead on mine 

"This says a lot when I say it, but it may convey nothing to you." 

I finished my statement with a smile and put my hand out. When he took my hand, I returned that special handshake as I looked directly at him.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night" 

 "You and I haven't talked" the Elder said, "can you tell me a few things about yourself?"

"What can I say" I replied " you know what you see in me. I don't have anything more to say about me. I'm just me."

"How simply you say that" the Elder said with a smile.

"It wasn't always that simple," I said. "there were years upon years I had an image of my 'self' but for the past eight years I have been in the 'medicine lodge' with three years apprenticeship in the 'circle'. I don't know what I am, I don't know who I am, but I know that I am.

-From Neisthes journals  "Into the Night"

 "You have me at a disadvantage Sir," I said to the elder, "I've met a lot of  personages, but I am off center and awkward feeling in this place. Yet until I tried to speak or think, I felt a deep abiding Peace and oneness here. Uh, I don't know what to say." 

"Then say nothing. I just wanted to make you feel at home. Remember what you have experienced! Don't let anything scar those perceptions. Often when they touch the Creators energy,  people reduce the experience to words in order to remember this important event. A few can just store the lived experience as they encounter it. The later way can bring true wisdom and knowledge."   

-From Neishtes journals  "Into the Night" 

 Educating the invisible 

Until the invisible educates me 

Time is a gift

Don't waste it

As if you had forever

Don't be stupid

 

All the children in black portraying Doom,

prophesizing Gloom

Well you know we are in our Space

Going somewhere, some place

Don't appear to be in a Hurry to get there

What you see is fragmented people

doing fragmented things

May tell you that the world is insane 

Confused to the maximum

Don't let it tell you that

' that's all it is'

Cause we ain't liking that news

Stop yourself, don't be a fool

by patterning yourself after what men do

                  

 " Jesus Alvaro!" I said.

I knew he had been waiting for me.

"Did you have fun?" he joked.

"Whew, what can I tell you," I replied. "Thanks, Alvaro."

We walked in silence for a while, and then we turned and went back to the entrance.

"You have to come out periodically now," Alvaro said. "If you keep 'centered' there we're off on an adventure of a lifetime, believe me"

" I am on an adventure of a lifetime," I smiled."Right now!"

"Let's get Tomas" said Alvaro, "I'm hungry."

And so was I. Thank you Grandfather, Thank you Creator came from me,  and I went inside. 

From Neishtes journals. "Into the Night"